tired…

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I’m getting either lazy or frustrated with posting every day. My apologies. Too much packing. High anxiety. And battling lack of sleep. I feel lost and alone even though I know there are people around who can help. I just hate to ask. They have lives too! Far be it from me to take them away from their responsibilities to help with the mess that is my life.

I cannot wait to get out of this house now. I want to wave my magic wand and make it all happen today. I want to be in the other house, sleeping in a bed, and unpacked. I want to be settled.

Thanksgiving went fine except that I missed Mom terribly. I cried. I just could not prevent it. I still feel very sad. I miss talking to her. I miss just knowing she was there.

Anyway, life goes on and so must I. Even when I feel like I have no strength left. I must push forward.

More moving

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The days are getting shorter and it seems I have more to do. Today is the pre-Thanksgiving luncheon at work. Have my pasta salad ready to go! It’s pretty good, taste tested it myself.

Not sure if the family is doing Thanksgiving this year. Mom’s house is a mess because of the move. Mine is the same. And really, without Mom, I don’t care either way.

Friday I will probably be moving stuff to Mom’s house to save money on the movers. The more I bring now, the less they’ll have to take.

The day after I move, I am having someone come clean the house so it will be market ready. I cannot wait to get out of here, but I will be leaving some ghosts for sure.

On to better days…

Stuff, stuff, and more stuff

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Stuff, stuff, and more stuff. I have accumulated so much over my lifetime. I’ve decided it doesn’t make me happy.

I went through some old Christmas stuff and decided to get rid of it. I know buried among the ornaments are ones from Mom either passed down or bought for me. I’d rather have Mom then all this stuff. I am keeping the Christmas village houses that I made and a couple of nutcrackers but that’s it. I haven’t touched this stuff since before Sally and she’s 12 years old!

So, if anyone thinks I’m nuts, so be it. I could probably make a little cash selling it but I just don’t have the energy or time to do so. I think tossing or donating it would make me happier.

Remember this when your kid says they want something. How long will it last? Will it give them joy? Or will it collect dust and eventually be tossed.

Angels

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Had a dream about Nana and Mom this morning. I miss them both. I miss the chats, the cooking, everything. There are still times I want to dial the phone and hear their voices. But I know they are with me always.
I have a few guardian angels up there now. Maggie, Mom, Nana, Gramma. They are all watching over me.
Do you believe in angels?

Thanks!

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Thank you to Dani and her son for helping to pack my grandmother’s china for the move. Moving date 12/12/19. Excitedly nervous. Have a lot to do still. UGH I am NEVER moving again after this. I have donated two pickup trucks worth of stuff and am slowly filling the dumpster. Please remind me not to accumulate so much crap from now on! It’s just stuff someone has to toss later.

Mom’s house

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This thinking about something to write everyday can get tedious.

Anyhoo… J brought some stuff over to Mom’s house. I think I’m going to keep calling it that for a while. Mom’s house. She was the only owner, so I still think of it as hers even though I own 1/3 of it. Someday I will call it my own.

Getting quotes from movers, getting my house power-washed, cleaning, packing, etc. Lots of work to do and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. So, if anyone has any words of wisdom, please pass it along!

My brothers and SILs have done so much work with cleaning up Mom’s house I feel guilty asking them to help me.