And I am feeling my fall blues approaching too soon. It’s like, “What’s the point? Why are we here?” I know it’s the depression, but that doesn’t help mentally. My logic dictates one thing but my emotions tell me something else and their voice is stronger. I want to bury myself in a hole or run away from this. Depression or any mental illness stays with you all the time You cannot brush it away, hug it away, or run from it. You have to face it, get help, talk to people, and all those things that the depression tells you NOT to do in order to “feel” better. Even then it is only temporary because something brings it back. Whether it is something you control or not, it comes back. I tend to self-sabotage. Stop taking the meds I know that help. I feel lazy and worthless and it is hard to crawl out of the hole. I know I will. However, there will always be another one.
This is my new tat. See the previous post explaining the meaning of the semi-colon. I found this image online and it hit me as apropos for me. I’ve been touch by suicide many times. Attempts and successes of friends. My own attempts. And the thoughts of friends and family who were close but brought back to the light.
Remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Only by living and supporting each other can we survive. Go hug a friend today! That person may need it more than you know.
Do you know someone who is being abused? Be a true friend. Give them all the support they need. Listen. Be there with an open ear, an open door, whatever they need. They may not even realize what they are experiencing is abuse.
Do you know when someone repeatedly calls you names, puts you down, makes you feel like a pile of nothing… THAT is verbal abuse and it hurts, sometimes even more than when you get hit. The damage goes even deeper than a bruise. It breaks your soul.
If a person thinks it is their fault, they may stay. You may think how can they do that? But listen to me, you have to realize, a victim might think they are the problem, not the abuser. If they can only behave or do the right thing, the abuse will stop. Until a victim understands what their experiencing is wrong and not their fault, they may not be able to leave.
The best you can do is give them support of whatever you can. Offer to take them to a shelter. Or simply listen.
Be a true friend.
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OK, now available on Kobo, Page Foundry, and Scribd. By the end of the day, I’m hoping more. Also working on getting it set up for print on demand.
Once the book is approved via POD I will get the new cover up and posted.
your mental illness like you
One person’s mental illness is not like any other’s. Just like the loss of a loved one, no one can fully understand your grief, your feelings, your voices. You can try to explain. You can make your best effort to put it all into words. Even if you form complete, grammatically correct sentences that are well thought out and descriptive, no other person can experience what another one does quite the same way.
Still, sufferers need to talk to their therapist! Only YOU can help YOU.